Having tried both diet Trotskyism and syndicalism and ending up not liking either, I’ve realised that if I ever want to overthrow the ruling class, it will have to be a solo effort.
Being an Aspie, I work a lot better on my own, and I’m often lost when in a group or team situation. At SP and SF meetings, I was often mute, and sometimes feigned illness just to get out early. Also, when trying to become part of a group, I never manage to fit in, so joining another organisation such as the Anarchist Federation or Class War is completely out of the question.
Part of the reason why I would rather work alone is because at least 80% of the people I’ve met are total cunts: bullies from school, people who’ve turned me down for jobs, tutors who didn’t recognise my talent, people from the SP; that has totally shattered my confidence in others. Working alone means that I wouldn’t have to meet any more potential arseholes.
Another part is the ineffectiveness of the anarchist movement. Although they’re way better than the Leninists, I still feel cold after going to events, like I did after leaving the M********r Anarchist Bookfair.
Maybe I’m writing this because I’m angry. Maybe by Saturday when I’ve gone to the alternative pride thing in M********r, it’ll all disappear and I might end up filling in an AF membership form, but most of the time, this is how I feel about starting a revolution.
Anarchoaspie
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